I'm still here......

Happy Saturday! I'm still here......

I told the small group that I lead that I was done blogging because the negative was too hurtful. I talked to a friend about that and she told me all that was is the devil trying to stop me from spreading God's love. I never thought that by sharing my story that I was sharing God's love but it's a honor to think that I am. Sean and I went to Birmingham yesterday to see a specialist but we left frustrated and confused. It wasn't all bad because I had a heart to heart with my doctor in Auburn about my expectations and desires for a long term treatment plan. I feel as good as I have in a while with the direction I'm headed and I'm hopeful for the new things to come. Our village continues to be strong and helps at every turn. People have told me how brave and courageous I am. I am not brave because I am strong and have it all together. I am brave because I am weak and need help to make it through life. I've never been ashamed or afraid to ask for help. Everyone needs some kind of help to get through life, but people who suffer from a mental illness just need a little more.  God continues to show me that he has gone before me and laid out my path. He has always shown me his goodness and faithfulness since I have been diagnosed. Either with people, doctors, therapists, medicine and many other things God has always been at the forefront and been my rock.  I have 8 1/2 years until I can retire and I will be 47 years old. I've been thinking lately what I will do when I'm retired. Sitting home all day won't be good, so I've thought about how I can share my story and my experiences to others in hopes of making their lives and their paths easier. It has become very clear to me that besides being a wife and mother my purpose is to bring as much awareness to mental illness so no one suffers in silence anymore.  I met with two great members of AORTA about the race I am coordinating. It will be on Saturday, May 19, 2018. We don't have a name or a logo yet, so I'm taking ideas. If you idea is selected, I promise you something yummy from CN Cattle!!  I also need people to help make this a success. From volunteers, runners and sponsorships I would be grateful for it all! There are all level of sponsorships, so if you are interested let me know and there will be lots of advertising for your business!  I am looking forward to everyone coming together to run for a cause that is so dear to me! I'll be honest, life has been a little overwhelming lately. Sean's very busy season, gearing up for my busy season and back to school has us all running in circles. I'm doing good right now, and like I said I'm hopeful and expectant for the good things to come from the new treatment plan my doctor and I decided on. I know that God is in all things and holds all things together.  When things get overwhelming, I just remember that God has already gone before me and nothing is a surprise to him!  I appreciate those who still follow and pray for me. It's a privilege and joy to share my story and hear of the difference I am making!

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